I AM HUNGRY!

I am hungry to see God's Holy Fire blaze all over my world. I wanna see Him in my family, in our church, in student's lives, in parent's lives. I know our generation is a bunch of people who seem to care less whether they ever meet with God or not. They care more about winning a game or being the best at this than they do about God using them and changing them in this life. I saw today that Perry Noble(the pastor of NewSpring Church in SC) has been preaching a message series entitled Practical Atheist. It is about how we call ourselves Christians yet the way we live does not demonstrate that to anyone. I am convicted and moved to do something but what. I will be praying God show me, my family, our Student Ministry volunteers and parents, and our church that we place so much more importance on other things than we do on God and being with God's people. Hungry to see God move in my midst!

Suffering in Mind

I am convicted often of how often I complain about my situations and circumstances. I wonder why I do this when I know that people all around the world are suffering hardships because they claim the name of Christ. I saw a facebook post this morning that read, "Ruin my life the plans that I've made- wow He has done a great job of that in my life." I cannot say that but on the other hand I am not sure I want to be able to say that. If I am honest, I am not sure I want God to wreck my life and the plans that I've made. I am selfish and it is so hard not to be. I like my life comfortable and maybe even wealthy. Living a life that is committed to Christ is not about that though. How do we live in this world but not allow this world to live in us? The world says if you want it then go get it. If you desire it, then chase after it until you have it and usually it doesn't matter what "it" is. "It" might be a woman, a man, a job, wealth, a large house, a family, dream job, happiness, and success. If we want something, does that mean we should chase after it until we have it? Our motivators in life many times are not Godly or Christlike. There is something deep down inside me that desires for my plans to be wrecked by God because they are selfish and because they make more of me than they do of God. I have been called by God to be a Christ follower and to be minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. My life must be an arrow pointing to Him and His Love for Mankind. I wish I could say that this is what my life illustrates but most of the time I think that if someone really observed my life they would see me sitting in the driver seat of my life directing it to where I want it to go. As hard as it is to say this, I know I need to say this, I must say this, I do say, "Lord, Ruin my life the plans that I've made, Ruin desires for my own selfish gain, destroy the idols that have taken Your place Till it's You alone I live for!" We do not choose suffering over comfort enough in this country. Any thoughts from any of you out there?

Changes are here

Well lots of new changes have started since this year started. Things are off and going and I am enjoying them so far. I am ready to meet some new interns to help with the student ministry. Our students need some extra excitement that can hopefully come from some new leadership. On different notes, our heater went out some time during the night but thankfully a business was able to fix it today so that our heater works again. We also decided to change Kailey's bed into a toddler bed tonight. She went to sleep really well and is doing good so far. We will see how the morning goes. I might be surprised sometime during the night when she is by my bed saying hi dada. I am working to loose weight again but I am not as disciplined as I need to be. It moves up and down but basically is locked around the same weight even though it is not the weight that I want. Hope life is well for you and your family. Let us pursue Godliness together!!!

Merry Christmas

Hey Everyone,

I hope you have a great celebration of Christmas this year with your family and friends. I always think of Christmas as so busy and full of hustle and bustle. I desire to slow my row and reflect on all the good and great things God has provided for me and done for me this year. I hope you will have a great time of reflection and family celebration as you celebrate Jesus Christ's birth to the world and salvation for all.

Great day

Yesterday was a great day. I enjoyed a great morning with the students in sunday morning Fuel. I liked helping with our Extended Teaching Care during the service. I went to lunch with some great folks in the Young Married group. I then helped setup for our church wide Thanksgiving banquet. It was a great success and loved the food. Tear down and cleanup with smooth and quick, it was done before I knew it. Afterwards I went to work out where Eric and I ran 3.2 miles and walked some before and after it as well. We then went and benched some weight which I ended up maxing out at 240. I was very pleased with that amount of weight. We tried to do some crunches and loose some belly fat. Went home and went to sleep soon after. Like I said it was a great day that I enjoyed living. Looking forward to this week, THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!! Thanks Lord for my family, my friends, my church, my job, everything that you entrust to me, volunteers that work with me on a weekly basis, my home, my cars, but thanks most of all for salvation and for loving me and forgiving me every single day!

Attn Captured

I have been wrestling with things much this fall. I am not sure why exactly but I believe much of it relates to my spiritual life being dry and without much growth. My personal time in the word and seeking to know God has been weak. Also the youth ministry I serve, seems to have lost much steam and direction. I wonder if there's a correlation? The answer seems to be Yes. Tonight I spent some time in the scriptures and feel a renewed at least at the current moment. Of course it is 2 am so I am not sure what I am feeling but I am tired of feeling like I am drained and alone in this thing. I want to see God's Glory displayed and His spirit move before me. I want to speak like Moses and say, "God, if you are not going to go with me then I am not moving." I want to live in God's spirit and power and display God's greatness to students and adults. I know God has called me and gifted me in ways but HOW DOES GOD WANT TO USE ME? I am not always certain of the answer to this question. I saw this video tonight that was encouraging, maybe it will talk to you in some way:

prayer

I am tired and in need of lots of prayer.